cheers to a new me!

So this weekend was wonderful didn't do anything overly exciting, but I did get out and about, the best part about the whole weekend was Saturday night playing a game of ultimate Frisbee for the first time which I loved and than we headed to one of the guys house afterwards and hung out. To be honest it was my first time since being here in Colorado for 3 months that I went and hung out with a group of people just having fun, it was a blast it was nice to be myself let loose have fun. So on Sunday night I had made plans to go on a walk with a guy the one who just wants to be "friends" well right before we were suppose to meet some plans changed and we ended up not being able to go on this walk so I came home that night sorta just in a little bit of a you know God I just want to go out have a date, sorta mood so I went out on my porch and and sat on the swing and had a little talk with God. and well since our little talk I have had a little more confidence I think one of the biggest things was coming to a understand with myself that I know who I am and I don't need a guy to define that for me. But also that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me and sure I could probably find a guy out there to date but would he be what is best for me or what just fills my temporal needs.I have been able to slowly start to let go of the guy who just wants to be friends, and start to feel the same way towards him as he does towards me, so that is a great feeling.  I do have a date though this Saturday night so we will see :) I do know that God is watching out for me. I did hear me as I sat there and had my little discussion with him the other night yay, means I wasn't talking to myself! but I think each day I really am just learning so much more about me and that just helps me to become such a happier and happier person which is really all I want any ways.

ugggh the dreaded F word

Lets be Friends, usually means you met someone who you  like and you trust or more commonly used in the dating world as your a really great person but I am just not interested and this is the nice way of me telling you. sometimes I think what I hate the most about the statement is not the fact that I am gaining a friendship with someone who I really want more with but the fact that they think I am STUPID and believe their statement of "I am just looking for friends right now" when we all know in a couple of months or weeks or hell days they will be dating someone and that whole looking for friends idea is all but out of their mind. I do know that guys are not the only ones who pull this stunt but me being a female who dates men has only experienced this from a male and really I just want the respect of being talked to honestly if we aren't meant to be together I can handle that, and would much rather hear you say I don't think you and I could work out as a relationship but we can try the friend thing and see how that goes than just the lame excuses. Than there are the people who just stop returning phone calls leaving you to A. either just sit and make up in your head all the great excuses as to why they are not returning your calls or calling you or B. to make you the physco chick who calls or text for weeks waiting for that response telling herself you just are busy or lost your phone or fell in a dark hole and no one knows where you are... that is until your facebook status changes a couple days later to in a relationship with miss hot pants. ouch ya! just man up and call me tell me its over or not working out or how ever you want to word it just don't do the disappearing act just makes you look like a jerk and causing a bunch of unnecessary heartaches.  

on a good note looking forward to another weekend with no plans hoping to find some hiking to do i title this blog blissfully single hoping that would change my outlook on things and although i am grateful for being single and the things i am learning about me. I am tired of the games and drama that being single bring into your life.
my next blog should have so exciting stuff on it I hope to be out about this weekend so maybe will have a great story to tell. wish me luck.
blissfully single.

is it time to start kissing frogs?

Tomorrow is my 4 year old nieces birthday party and she is so excited that its a princess party, my niece is all about everything princess. What it does is help me remember those days of waiting for my prince to come riding in on a white horse or swing off a rope to rescue me from a fire breathing dragon, maybe even get one to give me a kiss that will wake me from this awful dream that  I am in whereI am 25 and single! wait is that really that awful of a thing? do I need to start kissing frogs hoping they will turn into the prince I once wished for? I think sometimes the society I have grown up in has made it seem that 25 is old not to be married and there must be something wrong with you but looking back at the guys I would have married when i was 18-now none of the marriage would have turned out too great, I hadn't been picking those prince Charming, something happened between the ages of 4 and 16 where I stopped seeing myself as a princess and deserving of a prince and starting seeing myself as much less and its taken me until know to figure out that I deserve much more in life. I do wish there was a way to make dating life so much easier if I could just kiss a frog and he turn into the perfect guy, sometimes that sounds just nice but other days I do enjoy the excitement of getting asked out on a date and having a crush and the knowledge of knowing someone likes you and the emotions that come with that both good and bad make for growing situations. As time goes on and I get a little wiser and older with each year I find that what ever doesn't made break me just makes me stronger and I learn and grow each day. So I don't see my self kissing any frogs anytime soon but I do know that some day the prince that I deserve is out there and together we can go fight the fire breathing dragons!